COUNSELLING

                                        How deprived world looks like.

one morning I woke up to hear a heartbreaking story that I'm willing to never share with the world. I was so devastated and lost for a half week praying to God that I would be awakened up from an unbearable painful dream I was having. I took everything as a lie and couldn't believe how the world could be cruel to this extent. I thought God was molding me into the new refined product but with no ore to start with. the process got too tough and I remained with only one thing to keep my life on a strong foot ....."little faith".

one year of a happy life in disguise I've encountered a life-threatening condition where they were only one choice of surviving the moment. I've whirled to the point where trust, hope, faith, love, and peace cease to exist before I was born.   I was hiding from luck, life, and light. I could only see one color in all people's hearts.... "black". the atmosphere seems to be exotic and I could no longer recognize the roadway home.

I was walking at night, watching stars, telling them how things are hard for me, telling the moon to shine on me even on a bright sunny day because I could no longer feel light in daylight. thoughts were progressively changing every second, my heart was pumping hard as if it does no longer fit my chest, I was feeling like my heart was about to jump out from my chest. 

In the depressive world, every citizen is a prisoner who is imprisoned in a small cage where it's rarely hard to feel relaxed or move around as you wish. Every second was a battle to win the next second. My body was ceased to take instructions from my brain. I woke up in the morning wanting so much to do something and been unable to make myself begin. I have eaten the food that brought me nothing to the extent where I had no further desire to eat and I couldn't make myself stop. I was caged in my thoughts day and night. I felt like I wanted to let go of everything and move on but still found myself swirling around the cage. The sense of lacking control over your actions can be terrorizing.

Everything seems pointless. Nothing brings pleasure. Nothing brings hope. You can have short moments of pleasure like when you are doing something you enjoy, watching a good movie or, listening to music you like even if this doesn't last for long, or fight against negative thoughts you carry with you in every step of life you take. Every positive Thought fails in a battle with a negative one. You tell yourself that things will get worse in contradiction to better to come. I will make it out alive and another thought proves to you how you are dying and this allows you to never accomplish something in this state.

Hate is dominant in this realm especially towards yourself. I tried hard to isolate myself completely as my efforts of staying together with my friends were drowning away. I felt like I wanted to be alone like the whole world is just too much to handle unexpectedly when breaking my fence and get out of the bed I could enjoy I spend together with the one I love.

I didn't get to enlist all the feelings one can have in the depressive realm but tried to say a little enough about how it looks like. This corner of life may seem so sharp, hard, and harder to make it out alive but it's possible.  Lean Metcalfe said that the only thing that can save us from these negative thoughts is to fight hard to get better. Is to tell yourself repeatedly that despite the depths of your despair and real-life nightmare you are experiencing, you will be well again, you will yourself again. The more you believe in that, the more you start to get better.  That's the river I've managed to cross. I choose the same way the deprived world was imprisoned in.

We are all human.we are all soft at some points. One moment we are strong enough to push through everything while for another day we fell so helpless, lonely, misery, pain & despair and sometimes decide to give up. At this point where everyone needs a help from another person, either your friends, family, doctors and therapists, or just a person you choose to trust in. This the time where everyone should call for a help. 

Many people choose to shut up and sleep with everything irritating them but this isn't a solution. Currently, You've got that feeling that no one is there to listen to you? Feel like no one cares about what you are going through? Thought that they are too busy to understand your situation? Now I want to tell you that many of your loved ones are waiting to hear your small sounding voice. Many of strangers wish you have a healthy life free from despair, pain and depression. Many souls are out there to care and understand you. There are many people who want you to tell them how your life is going and they are willing to understand your feelings, and waiting to give their support and helps you to heal from your sickness.

 

It can be hard to win the happiness you long for but if you keep fighting hard, engage people with good soul to help you win, and keep hoping for good, you can achieve it. It might be hard for you to discuss things related to your life especially when you are going through something which is difficult to handle, I can understand. You  don't know whom to trust with your story even if your history is killing you little by little. you don't feel open to talk about something you quote as privacy. It's okay and it happens. We all know that It's so hard to start this journey of setting yourself free from chains of self-reliance, loneliness, depression, grief and pain you've been experiencing and that is why.....

I want you to wake up from your whimpered bed and open your self-caged box you've been fenced in for long. Gather your full energy & courage. Open your heart and prepare your soul for a battle to win your happiness,strength, freedom and pain-free life. Don't lie yourself that things will be alright with time. No It's not. Because those kind of pain should be relieved. That anger should be calmed. That hate you have been filled with should be displaced and your questions should be answered. It's okay for us to weep but don't allow your misery to carry away your happiness.

So to day promise the world to fight back. Push hard until those walls collapses. Walk step by step to find what is rightfully yours.  Tell your soul that you are back. Teach & convince your heart to give trust to the ones who deserve it. Call one and ask him/her to listen to your story.listen to me, your  small sounding voice can be heard. Don't convince your heart to engulf all your pain, loneliness, heart break, stress es, anger, hate and sorrow. Just share your concern, its a first step for healing. 

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